maart 9, 2010
Sometimes my head is spinning like mad. I can’t stop all the thoughts that go through my mind. I wish i could. But memories keep surfacing (finally, they’ve been burried too deep). I’m happy that i finally remember them, but why do they come back when i want to sleep?
Last night i lay awake from 4 am. The night before that i was awake from 1 am til 4 am. I then finally fell asleep, but had very weird and anxious dreams about mail somehow not being delivered or envelopes running back to me when they should go to the person i wanted to write. Even BookCrossing books had hidden messages in them. Last night i was dreaming that i was dreaming. Somehow that ended up being a nightmare. Hadn’t had one for a long time. I think it might be the new job thing and a lot of other things coming together.
Don’t get me wrong, i love those things coming together right now. I believe it’s time for them to resurface, just the insomnia that it causes is hard to deal with. I’m really glad to have my new job and the opportunities it gives me. It might take some time to fit in, but i believe i can make it here. I love it here.
Now there’s just the matter of stopping my head from spinning and trying to get a good night sleep. That would be very welcome.
januari 28, 2010
I had a job interview on both monday and tuesday. Got the word tuesday afternoon that i have a new job closer to home. Which means no more travelling by ferry and staying over on Terschelling the days i’m working. Finally!
september 22, 2009
Yesterday i was working. When i left my room i still had the beautiful view i found when i joined this job:
When i came back after 8 hours, i found this:
Quite a difference, right? That’s because, after 7 and a half years of waiting, the building for the new nursing home has finally started. We are all very excited over this, but i do miss my view…
april 21, 2009
I’ve been really, really busy lately. So forgive me for not writing as much as i used to do.
The new job is great. Nice coworkers, great people, beautiful surroundings. The only thing is leaving Jay and the cats every time. That is so hard. I still don’t know if i can do that every time. We’ll see. Meanwhile i’m still looking around for something closer to home.
I finally have a good, working internet access. In my eyes that is vital to my survival on Terschelling. I need internet access, maybe you can call me addicted, i don’t know. But i really do need it.
Drivinglessons are going well. I love driving, never expected that at all. Will update later, but this is it for now. I’m sorry.
april 1, 2009
About one and a half hours ago, i arrived in my room in my new work place on Terschelling. My room is yellow… I hate yellow, but okay. Have to live with that.
It’s approx. 4×3 meters, plus a small hallway with toilet and shower. The room has a bed aginst the window wall. A door with the tv in front of it. A couch on the weall next to the head end of the bed and a table and chairs on the other wall. At the other end, opposite of the window, is a tiny kitchen with a fridge and a coffeemaker. Which i want to trade, i don’t drink coffee, only tea. And tea from a coffeemaker is undrinkable.
I’ll post pics saturday or sunday when i get back home.
maart 6, 2009
The idea of working on Terschelling has finally began to sink in. Sometimes i feel a big knot in my stomach. It feels really far from everything i know and love. I feel overwhelmed by the idea of not seeing Jay whenever i want to. Of not being able to go wherever i want. And if i think about it i already feel desperate and lonely.
But on the other hand i feel excited. The idea of going to a place i don’t know, working in a home i don’t know, meeting new people, that excites me. I hope Jay and i can cope with being away from each other. I don’t know, we’ve only been away from each other for a few days when i was in hospital. And that didn’t go too well. But that was partly because i was very ill and felt really bad and needed him so badly. We’ll see how it goes.
maart 5, 2009
I received a phonecall about an hour ago, telling me i got the job. It’s for a year at first, 24 hours a week. I’m glad i got a job this quickly, but i’m also a little uneasy with the feeling i have to be away from Jay and the cats so many days a month. I don’t know. The job looks great, but there’s still this weird knot in my stomach.
maart 4, 2009
A little later then promised, but i said i would be updating you on the job interview.
The interview went very well. Totally different then i imagined, but i quickly adapted to their methods. I really liked their style of doing the job interview. Within an hour i was outside again and i’m getting the results this week. So i’m waiting impatiently.
After the interview i hiked into the woods and called Jay and my dad. After that my plan was to go and find a way to the beach, but somehow i didn’t go to the beach. I stayed in the woods. Very quiet and peaceful. I walked for more then an hour when i decided to go back to the ferryterminal. Of course i had to hurry, because i was a long way away from the terminal. When i arrived back in the village i was just in time to go on the ferry (you need to be there half an hour early and i was). When i boarded the ferry i sought a seat near the window. The journey home was long, but not as long as i’d imagined.
So i’m waiting for the results. Will post back later!
februari 23, 2009
Right now, i’m doing everything i can to get myself a job. But it’s not yet working. There are lots of jobs i could do, but not in my region. They’re simply too far away. I’m sent my CV to a bunch of job sites in hopes it’ll get somewhere. But my hopes aren’t that high. Tomorrow i’ll have my first driving lesson (Aargh!) and i’m hoping i can do 2 or 3 lessons a week. That way i’ll have my license in no-time (i hope)…
februari 20, 2009
I’ve gotten a phonecall yesterday from the first job interview. I didn’t get that job, because a few other people who already worked there had applied for that job also. They did like me enough to keep my papers in their system and will call me again when there’s another job available.
Heard nothing from the island yet. Waiting impatiently, cause i really need a job…
